lets do a happy rain dance

if i could paint a picture of my perfect moment, it would be me, arms open wide and spinning around, with rain pouring down from the night sky by the sea.

im such a water baby. there's just something about it that draws me. yst when i was curled up in bed about to sleep, it started pouring, and i just had to go and stand at the window for a while to smell it heh. and i guess nomore needs to be said abt how much i love the beach. but today i realised that i love the night as well. there is a stretch along east coast near the changi chalets where the street lamps are out and as i was lading along tt stretch tonight, barely able to see where i was going, but the night stretching out above me, i felt soso happy :)

today like never before i understood what the meaning of spending time with God in solitude and silence was. i tried before, but it was always a strained effort with me trying to clear my thoughts and focus on Him but not really finding it easy to just sit in His presence and not want to go do something. but today He just showed me the truth in the words "He leads me beside still waters, He restores my soul". as i sat there listening to the waves crashing around me and feeling the sea breeze on my face, He was there with me, and we just sat there enjoying each other. the palpable presence of God is just so wonderful that you dont feel like doing or saying anything but sitting there and basking in it - and that is when God restores your soul, no effort required, just the willingness to be lead by Him.

in moments like these, i sing out a song, i sing out a love song to Jesus :)
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hmm anyway, today was qt an exciting day cos i saw my first op in surg posting haha. it was colon resection and super smelly la.but seriously huge tumor man... the docs say nv see such a big one before also. and we got to srcub in! haha. but didnt get to help much la just hold things here and there, but qt exciting la! tho it kinda reminded me why i used to say i dont wanna be a surgeon haha. the vascular team is seriously mad la. we just have a crazy doc who likes to shoot his used gloves around the OT haha. i was qt stunned by some of his remarks tho.. i hope that i wont become that jaded by my profession ever man.

and

interesting song -

You Give Me Something by James Morrison.

You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep,
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.

You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me,
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what the mean,
I never thought that I'd love someone,
That was someone else's dream.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart,
But it might me a second too late,
And the words I could never say
Gonna come out anyway.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.

Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart